An easier time...

I just spent the day/night at my parents house in between shifts; I laid on the bed that my mom made up for me and thought about an easier time. I laid in the bed just staring off thinking about how safe and secure I felt just by simply lying in the bed. I reflected on a time when my life was so much easier and basically carefree. Although I fretted about the normal high school girl things: which guys I liked, my school work, which crowd I desired to be a part of, and how fast I could grow up; I now wish I could go back to this time of ease with everything I know now. Everything back then (although it seemed worse at the time) was a lot easier than what we go through now. Relationships were not as serious and overwhelming. Money did not control our lives. Finding ourselves was something we were doing on a daily basis, but did not have to TRY to do. And finally, happiness was something we felt; true and honest happiness embraced our daily lives! Oh, how I wish I could go back to this time. I wish that I could be who I was then--- a happy go luck gal! However, I just layed there on the bed, embracing the scents, the feelings and the thoughts knowing that I had to make a change in my life, because I know that I can be happy again!!

Finding Myself Not Far From Home...

So, like I mentioned I got a job---I have started it and enjoy it; although I must admit I'm still a bit at a loss as to what to do. However, I am confident that I will be just fine--I have great confidence in myself and my experience to get the job done! I do have to state also, that the drive is a bit boring---so if you know that I work and want to save me from my misery--call me PLEASE! :)

Being unemployed is teaching me about myself a little. For example, I think I want to start writing (again); I miss it and I have been away from it for WAY too long. Not to mention, many people have commented on my writing abilities which of course does not turn me away from the writing. I actually just submitted a writing sample to a local paper to see if I can be a free lance writer, also, I have applied to be a "part time reporter" for a somewhat local newspaper. Writing has always been an interest of mine; why not turn it into a money maker. (maybe I'll write a book??).

I have also found my interest in reading--oh my how I do love to write!! I actually have been reading Sybil by Flora Rheta Schreiber. Many people have heard of this case, but I think the book thus far (30 something pages in) is quite intriguing.

Although I'm not looking at living off of a part time job for too long, I have been looking for jobs that I'll find more interesting than just some ho hum job!! In fact, mom mentioned that I should apply to be a model (I thought she was nuts at first, but hey it's worth a try). So, perhaps I will simply find some laughter and a more concise reasoning not to do these things I'm doing--but I'm young and still capable to be picky with jobs and more precisely, life!

Amaretto Bliss...

So, the past few days have been more than busy (in fact, I don't even know where to start). Thursday-- I ventured to my parents' house to enjoy some good ol' small town (Elmwood) fun! I was able to break out the 4wheeler ("vrroom vrrrooom") and take Miss Karlee for a ride around the yard. Then, Friday brought upon many new and great adventures. I went out with my Uncle Paul (before he went to Iraq) to the bars in Menomonie, Wisconsin. Figuring it out I had about 8 double Amaretto Sours, 1 singler Amaretto sour, a Chuck Norris, a Cherry Dr. Mcguilicuddies (or something like that) and a vodka with cranberry. Oh and I have not laughed so hard in forever---My uncle was a complete riot (complete with his lack of inhibition). Oh and it helped that I was a bit on the intoxicated side. In fact, I went into the bathroom at the last bar (which humorously was the same as the first) and after having 3 double amaretto sours in like a 20-30 minute period, I was a bit tired; so, I decided to take a little bit of a nap on the sink counter. Oh a few seconds later, 2 young girls came and woke me up stating "hey friend." Oh, it was definately an interesting thing!

Plus, I got a job--- the pay isn't great and I have to drive 45 minutes to get there, but in the end it's something I want and enjoy to do.

The rest of the weekend was spent recovering from my night of blissful amaretto, relaxing and trying to enjoy the day of the large bunny (with a homosapien surprise inside).

It was a somwhat relaxing weekend, but busy at the same time!!!

DOWN TIME

Life has handed me some unexpected turns. Like, I was terminated from my job. Although I am still adjusting to this, and the fact that I was terminated for things that were petty, not my fault, or were outright lies! However, I guess I can not dwell on these things--- I realize that things happen for a reason. I am able to look at this situation as a one that will teach me a lot about myself and who I want to be!! I know that the organization I worked for was neither what I was looking for professionally, nor who I wanted to be supervised by. So, like all the other bumps in my life, I have to see this as a temporary detour--- perhaps a "short cut." I just have to continue to have faith and believe not only in myself, my abilities and the bigger picture. Of course monetarily, this change has not been the ideal situation, but it'll work out. I have put in tons of applications all over and actually have an interview on Monday evening at a Chemical Dependency facility.... doing what I had done before. Although the pay is less and what not.... I'm going for the interview because I NEED to get out there in the working world soon!! This Down Time is KILLING ME! Although I've been trying to make the best of my down time--I've been writing letters like I used to like to do, I'm reading, and trying to get caught up on my homework. Let's see where life brings me--- For now, it's down time and collecting unemployment, but give me a little bit of time and who knows what will happen!!